1/27/11 - Thursday

So today was my surgery - reconstruction - in at 11:40 or so -and in my room at 4;30 - I think give or take.

1/16/11 - Sunday



Remember when you heard the words - and your mind went blank - you were in another world
God heals
Remember in your darkest hours - when all that surrounds you is pain and sorrow
God heals
Remember friends' prayers - your family's encouragement - glimmers of hope from everyday angels
God heals
Quiet...you can hear Him now - always there - yet never this close
God heals
It's just another day - yet everything has changed - and you hear yourself say
God heals
Birds are singing - the sky is a beautiful blue - flowers are blooming...
God heals
Truths that you knew as a child - awakened again with new understanding
God heals
Remember when others can't - that life is a gift - each day to treasure
God has healed

12/22/10 - Wednesday

Today, Wednesday December 22nd 2010 - today is my last Chemo treatment - Its been a long 16 weeks - but I feel that its been a life changing experience.  As I went to my treatments I realized that cancer doesn't discriminate - people from all walks of life go thru it, all ages, men and women - I was really surprised at how many people were there on the days I was.  I met alot of nice people, some of whom I plan to stay in contact with - and the nurses there who administered the chemo - are the best!  They are so friendly - and personable and it made my visits to be comfortable - they walk you thru what they are doing.  There were days I was there for hours, the last few treatments I slept, made the time go by faster - this last treatment i didnt sleep - my friend Patty came to visit  me - bought me lunch - yummm chicken salad with walnuts and craisins....yum who'da thought that would be good.   it was!  
Well, the last day of chemo for me was my Christmas present - soon maybe i will grow my hair back - and then decide what way to wear my hair - since i have four different wigs, i have some ideas.



At the end of my treatment - the nurses all gather around and blow bubbles its like a celebration - I've been wanting them to blow me bubbles since my second treatment - they said I had to wait.  and i did....its a good feeling when you've completed this - like i said the people are great -


Although now I have to go back for genetics testing to see if I carry the gene - if i do .....I may want to consider having a prophylactic mastectomy on the other side - which can reduce my chances of getting breast cancer again.  Wish I had just had a double when i started, but i didnt know - everything happened so fast after my official diagnosis on august 2nd, to my surgery on aug 16th -to chemo.....now the test will be performed on December 29th - at 3pm - it takes 2+3 weeks for the results - if it comes back postive for the brca1 and brca2 means i've inherited the gene - has an increased risk of developing certain cancers ovarian or breast on other side.  



i will write more when i have my genetics test done - for now - Chemo is done - the holidays are here  and time to enjoy my family and friends!  Merry Christmas!  

12/10/10

OMG The pain - in the lower back- and legs - thank god my mom has a heating pad!  i should have an electric blanket so i could wrap up my whole body due to the achyness - one more 12/22 is my last treatment - and then hopefully - my hair will start to grow back.  Wonder what color my hair will come back - and if it will come back curly!?  my psorasis went away with the first 4 chemo treatments but with the taxol, it must not be that powerful of a drug - because its coming back.....(sad)....

Well, psorasis - or cancer ....

12/08/10 -Wednesday

Today was my Chemo treatment - I have one more to go!  woohoo!!!  anyway - today I saw Dr. K - I was worried because last time i had chemo I had a huge margarita and I wasnt supposed to...he said it was fine due to my blood counts have been good.


So, Thursday was fine -but Friday - Sunday the pain in my legs was unbearable!  I have a cold as well, and was taking hydrocodone to try to relieve some of the acheyness in my body from the chemo -I am not tired with the taxol, like I was with the A/C - but wow the pain !!  Although I was going to get a hot tub - but the guy never came back to build my deck - guess he saved me some $$$  -   but oh the pain....

11/17/10 - Wednesday

Today I went to Dr. K - for him to check on me a week after my Taxol treatment to check my blood counts - they were good, so I didnt need to get a neulasta shot.  I had told him that from Saturday until Tuesday afternoon is when my bones ached.  and I noticed that my eyes seem alittle fuzzy sometimes.  He said that thats normal (whew!) 


I felt good on Wednesday - I had to go to DOCS and bring my note over.


I changed my chemo treatment this week from Wednesday to Monday - due to Thanksgiving (and the Peacock's bash) so after Monday I will have 2 more woohoo!! 

11/12/2010 - Friday

So today, 3rd day after my taxol treatment - I am not feeling tired, or anything - but I am definitely teary eyed.  commercials, a book I am trying to read, show's my son watches (making me cry).  and I also am having joint pain - my thighs, hips, knees - are killing me!  they are so achy - feels like I've been sleeping on one side for to long -but I'm not laying down!    I believe they say day 3 &/or 4 for the pain and then it subsides - PLEASE SUBSIDE!!  -